Posted by adamie on November 28, 2001, at 14:02:49
In reply to your first love, posted by sar on November 25, 2001, at 0:46:14
everything was always completely perfect. we were like soulmates. we would talk online for several hours every single day and we could never get enough of eachother. we had everything in common. we would talk about everything and know more about eachother than most anyone else ever would. we made comments such as "you are my life forevere" "I would die without you" "I will be with you all my life forever". it would be impossible for us to even argue so much as once. we had so much passion all the time. but she had to ruin everything. she says she still loves her husband despite all the horrible things he did including forcing her to sleep with his friend. he manipulated her into staying with him. saying he will kill himself if she leaves him. and she simply doesn't take my suffering seriously. she is my life, so how can i just get over her not being with me? she has done the most horrible thing imaginable. she says she will still always want to be with me but is too weak to leave him. there is no excuse for her not to be with me. all the promises we made. what she's done has nearly killed me. i have for the past 6 months been dealing with severe and at times suicidal depression. i need her worst of all and she does something like this. she i moving to a new house now. i have sent her 50 emails over 1 month. still waiting for her write back. before she said it still may be possible for us to be together. such as me living with her and her husband. she has destroyed me. he is everything to me yet she continues to hurt me so much. what part of "you are my life forever" does she not understand? i thought everything we said was 100% serious. I guess she doesn't take it seriously enough and I may be dead without her. the severe mind torture every day is so much but at least with her i could try to be livable. she can save my life. without her i am nothing :*****. how can she be so selfish. my life is at stake and she treats me this way. everything was supossed to be perfect. how dare she care more about him than me. the man who once made her suicidal. the man who treated her like shit for 1 year. she cant be brave enough to leave? then she should find a damn way. crying all day and feeling beyong horrific, the illness's mind torture and this all adding up caused me to almost have an attempt. i have no life except her. it's impossible for me to ever meet anyone like her ever. i cant stress enough how perfect we are for eachother. she agrees but she has her stupid reason. i would never insult her but i have been so close to being dead. there isn't much for me left. how could she do this to me expecially knowing my condition. just hope she will be back soon. maybe my life will be important enou=gn for her. or maybe she can just come once for vacation so i can at least die in her arms :*********. /me crying soo much
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