Posted by sar on November 27, 2001, at 23:29:14
In reply to Re: your first love -- Warning! Very long post ;-) » sar, posted by Simcha on November 27, 2001, at 15:29:48
Dear Jason,
i've had many fleeting relationships...the 2 longest-lasting ones were with the soulmate unattractive guy, and an extremely attractive guy who treated me poorly.
i think i feel guilty because i want to cry. i feel fortunate. they say i'm pretty, i do some modelling work, and i fell in love with someone with bad genes...i just lost my sex drive with this person and did not want to have children with him. the extremely attractive guy, oh i felt so lustful around him all the time, but...it ended badly.
my current boyfriend is tall (good, because i'm tall) and skinny (too skinny really, but i don't care) and at 21 he already has crows feet but to me that's a testament to how much he's genuinely laughed. i wouldn't give him a second look on the street, but he pleases me very much now...i tend to be attracted to very funny, sociable guys because i'm so sober and introverted...this guy keeps me laughing.
i don't even want to post this, ugh, but i think it's an interesting anonymous conversation: i dumped the love of my life because he was ugly. he treated me like a princess (as no one else has) but after nearly 3 years it didn;t matter because i couldn't bear to have sex with him anymore.
so. what topic does this bring up? what's most important? when your significant other becomes unattractive to you, what happens? i've always thought that sex is romance-glue...and i could no longer have sex with this unnattractive face,
sound shallow? yeah. but it's the brutal truth. i want to be crazy about someone as much as they're crazy about me. it seems really difficult to find that. the wrong people always like the wrong people.
i am putting myself to sleep on the keyboard with the vino and babbling. i hope someone understands this.
poster:sar
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