Posted by sar on August 16, 2001, at 13:31:46
In reply to Re: sar is okay » sar, posted by shelliR on August 14, 2001, at 20:51:09
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> I'm sure you'll balance out. Because if you are a true "introvert" in the Jungian sense of the word (Myer-Briggs test) than you will need to pull back sometimes or you will not be tune with yourself. But maybe you do tend toward the extravert side if you have no SA, so then you could go on and on like this. You'll find out, I'm sure. I have an extraverted personality, but am really an intravert, always need to recover after spending a long time with people, or I get panicked at being too far from myself.i took the myers-briggs test when i started at a new college about 3 years ago and they said i'm an INTP. i've taken the shorter version online more recently and it comes up with INFP. but whatever it is i am, it's introverted. i physically need lots of time alone and have to "recharge" after being around others. one of my co-workers dubbed me "my own private idaho" because i can fall asleep anywhere and because of my apparent spaciness. however, when i tell people that my elementary school teachers would telephone my mom all concerned because i wasn't playing or talking with the otheer kids, they are surprised. i've become a talker and a half, no longer afraid people to touch ppl affectionately, i think i may come across as extraverted sometimes but really really i'm an introvert.
> Well, it doesn't seem like he's really threatening you yet. It's interesting to me that shrinks either don't mind using benzos or they hate it, but it doesn't seem to have anything to do with the needs of their patients. I think it's okay if he's helping you find other ways to control your anxiety, but if he threatens to take away the klonopin, I'd find someone else who will give it to you. If it helps you, it's good. My pdocs always give me klonopin; they never make it an issue.
i'm glad you've had luck with this. they do seem quite eager to label "drug-seeking behavior." well hell yeah, if klonopin is half my panacea, why *shouldn't* i seek it? i used to be really anti-meds, so being "addicted" to a benzo is not particularly appealing--but i feel like a new person, really. if this new pdoc doesn't keep prescribing i will certainly switch.
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> Well, I think people should be really picky about who they choose as a therapist. And probably if I had just picked my therapists at random, I'd really have a hard time. My present therapist was assigned to me years ago when I was in the hospital and I really liked her style, pushy but supportive. So the next time I wanted to change therapists I called her because I already knew she had been very helpful to me inpatient.i agree with you. finding the right therapist is kind of like finding the right spouse or best friend! i found my favorite psychologist completely by accident (first time seeking one) but she was military, had to transfer. in the past year, i paid the wicked witch $110/session and the free counselors nothing for their propaganda. i think i may just sit out for awhile, enjoy the meds, read the Dalai Lama etc.
> Here's the question (you probably already said, but I can't remember). After you drink one glass of alcohol, can you ever just stop. Or once you start, you lose that ability to control the amount?
no, i can never just stop. even drop-down drunk, i won't take water, "i want beer!" i yell (my friends tell me this--they are saints to handle me). after one drink i just feel a bit dehydrated and tired, so i guess i figure it's just best to get really drunk and feel a lot better. the main thing that's toned this down has been the social aspects--you know how drunks, um, tend to do alot of embarrassing things? i'm big on embarrassment. i become embarrassed fairly easily. so i tend to not show up trashed anymore with a bunch of sobers. i do have a problem, yes. alcoholism runs in my family. the loss of cognition from severe depression/prozac/klonopin has destroyed my interest in reading. (i used to be an avid reader and majored in english lit.) i think, i should read Siddharte. but i pour a capecod instead.
> If you can't control that, then truthfully, I don't think you're going to get very far in therapy. That kind of drinking usually has a genetic component to it, and people who have that basically have one choice, to stop drinking altogether. I've never been to a 12 step group, but they certainly don't sound very appealing to me. At some point I read that there were other types of groups available for alcoholics, but I don't know much about them, or even if they still exist. Is it possible to find another type of group that will help you? Do these "free places" offer groups? Then later down the road think about individual therapy?
i've been to AA a few times and didn't like it. it felt like church to me. weird and full of hearty hollow promises and professions. i did appreciate the free coffee. i hugged a woman who was crying. i just don't dig the group stuff. the "free places" are kind of funny. like AA is free and so is some counseling, but i just don't think it's kosher. the free places usually have some sort of requirements/agenda because thewy are run by some sort of agency or religious group. i'm more of a rugged individualist anyway... :) i'll sit this one out by myself.
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> BTW, I agree with everything that Marie says about you in her post further down. You've got so much going for you--I don't want the drinking thing to pull you down. And it will, baby girl.
it already has. lost friends. my supervisors have been warned that i have a "drinking problem" (but they still drink with me, shit) cuz one of the bosses smelled beer on me once or 6 times. i'm very aware of the dragging-down aspect--lost my best friend, my car, my flat tummy--3 goddamn important things. i cried alot about my best friend.do you ever feel like this--that if you fall in love, everything will magically be okay? i used to smoke pot day and night, but once i got into a good college and found a wonderful boyfriend, the potsmoking dropped off. that's horribly dependent and optimistic, but without another warm body in my bed, i just feel like destroying myself.
> Where do you live; I can't remember?
texas.
> Take care, be careful.
> Shelliyou take care too girl, thanks for watching out for me--
love
sar
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