Posted by Dubya on June 29, 2001, at 23:46:30
People tell me I try too hard. (I don't quite follow what they mean when they say this). I am like the only one (I am 20) that is single and alone w/nothing to do on a Fri night. I have no idea how to have a girlfriend or even invite a girl out to coffee, etc. I have everything one can wish to have (material goods) yet I am MESSED up like this. I know money can't bring happiness, however, the more I use the material goods (i.e. car) the more worthless I feel. Sometimes I wish someone would just kill me or give me a big slap across the face. Sometimes I think the world would be better off without me. Sometimes I think about how unimportant I am to this world. Sometimes I feel like a big loser. Sometimes I just wish I was someone else but me. Sometimes I wonder why my life feel so painful. Something about ME makes me suck like this. I always wonder why people avoid me and not even tell me why, I wonder if it is something I did to wrong them. This makes it even more difficult for me to distinguish btwn right/wrong. I am a peanut brain, I hope nobody has to go through what I am/have gone through.
I really appreciate the attention you put in by reading this.
poster:Dubya
thread:6939
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