Posted by Lexie on March 27, 2001, at 22:15:51
In reply to y, posted by adams on March 27, 2001, at 21:05:05
I have been in the same "hole" that you talk about, but you can find your way out, I did. Now Let's answer the question you ask Y? Because you are worth loving. Your Mother obviously Love's you, it would break her heart if anything happened to you and you obviously love her, now that is a awsome thing to live for. You said that you didn't want to die, but you couldn't keep suicide out of your head. I know that sometimes that dark place can become so over powerering that we see no light at the end of the tunnel. But I am here to tell you there is a light at the end of the tunnel You should go back and read some of my struggles! I also know the feeling mention of being worn out, I would be so tired that I would just want to lay in the closet because it was small, dark and safe. Let's get proactive, you mention ECT, but have tried medication yet? Therapy and Medication go well together it worked well for me, but I went through a ton of medication before finding the right ones. Everyone is differn't don't give up lean on your friends here.
Let's focus on the positive things you said:
You don't want to die
You don't want to hurt your Mother
You want to REMEMBER why you should keep living
(that would make me believe you have some happy rememberances)
Hang in there, keep posting. I have been in your shoes. I am very concerned about you. I see you in that dark hole, I just hope you see that I am reaching my hand down to help you up. Lexie
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