Posted by Dubya on March 25, 2001, at 19:48:48
In reply to Re: Are Humans pack animals? elaborated » Dubya, posted by dreamer on March 25, 2001, at 9:51:54
I KNOW I AM RAMBLING but plz read further:
All I can say is, not to complain or anything but, I am not good enough at ANY single thing. Besides, people think that I am such a genius or a great friend when I can give advice but, I can never take my own advice. I can only help others and, when no one else is around to be helped, I feel helpless and not needed. I always wonder if any one person I've ever met is a real friend or even just a friend. Something about ME causes ME to SUCK because, people take advantage of ME, I get USED probably because I am STUPID. When nobody is around me, I AUTOMATICALLY assume that I am HATED or CRAZY or NON EXISTENT. I think I BROUGHT THIS ALL onto MYSELF and I DESERVE THIS, SO I HOPE. I am religious and love to be a 'GOOD' person but, the PROBLEM is ME. I've come to the point where I can almost visualize, perhaps through OCD, completely unintentional and UNCONSCIOUS/SUBCONSCIOUS thoughts of not being alive.
poster:Dubya
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