Posted by lucie lu on February 14, 2009, at 12:22:23
In reply to Therapy last night ******CSA Trigger*********, posted by TherapyGirl on February 13, 2009, at 20:13:40
Boy, when it rains it pours, doesn't it?Actually your T is right about the dreams, at least from what I am learning these days about brain circuitry. It seems like your brain during sleep is connecting dots. The dots may not have been meant to go together in the first place. So if you dream that (a) you are a child; and (b) in a particular situation; and (c) had certain feelings about that, it may not have ever happened that all three ever occurred together IRL. That's why most of our dreaming is not in the form of actual events or accurate memories. So in the dream, the three may not have even been connected IRL and so may represent something else entirely. For instance (and I am just making this up as an example) a "child" in the dream may represent unrealized growth potential, a "trigger situation" may represent something that there may be inner prohibitions against; and there may be feelings of "doing something wrong." However, what such a dream might be reflecting is that a dreamer is trying to look at what things have been holding him/her back from a level of something (happiness? success? peace?) that they have been led to think is not possible for them to attain. See what I mean? So maybe for you, you needn't worry so much about the "language" of the dream (i.e. its imagery), because it was not really meant in the literal sense.
Two other thoughts, more physiological, about the difficulty you've had w/ AD treatment. The first is that thyroid dysfunction can have a significant effect on how drugs are metabolized. For instance (and over-simplifying, to be sure), any given drug will stick around (i.e. have a longer half-life) longer in hypothyroid individual than a normal one, and the half-life will be shorter still in a hyperthyroid person. Side effects can also be affected. So getting the thyroid dysfunction under long-term control (which you are trying to do, and that IMO is a very good thing for you to keep on working toward) may very well open up possibilities for decent A/D control of your mood symptoms.
The other thing is that someone on this board a few months ago was raising the subject of a non-drug treatment (involving magnetic imaging?) that has shown promise for depression that has not responded well to meds. It is not anything like electroshock, in fact sounded quite benign and non-invasive. From what I remember, they were looking at cases like yours that have not be refractory to A/D meds. Can someone on Babble help me out here?
Just try to remember, TG (and I know how hard it is at times like these!), that everything you are thinking and feeling right now is going right through a depression filter. If you remove that filter, things will look and feel very different. Depression is a mind-bender, it changes the way everything really is to suit itself. Things really do return to normal and the birds really do start to chirp again when the Big D lifts. That's because they always were chirping, the Big D just hid it from you.
(((((((((((((TG))))))))))))))
Lucie
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