Posted by sassyfrancesca on July 22, 2008, at 9:57:13
In reply to Wanting to connect about desire and transference, posted by FindingMyDesire on July 19, 2008, at 2:28:59
I've been in love with my (male) t for almost 5 years; I told him about it. We have very long in-depth conversations about that.
I had a dream that I told him I wanted to worship his p**nis.....i actually TOLD him about that; the reason that it is so ironic is that he is ALSO a pastor, LOL......(worship?!)
Five years ago, I never would have told him that; but we have come a loooong way.
He has sexualized our relationship (no sex); by the things he has said (sexual innuendo, etc)....and touched me physically. Too long a story to go into here; he is the only man in my life; I know I should leave him (as he confuses and hurts me from time to time), but I am not ready.
Alone after 31 years of abuse; is an excruciating thing for me; I cannot bear it.
Love, Sassy
My desire is on "kill"---but amazingly (even with him leading me on), I haven't acted on my feelings....THAT is a miracle.
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