Posted by muffled on October 3, 2007, at 1:36:53
In reply to help....bad news, posted by rskontos on October 2, 2007, at 22:53:16
> I have just learned more history about my screwed up family which means I am more messed up than I knew and I don't know how to deal.
**Well, mebbe you kinda DID know...:-(
But to hear it from someone else when you are not ready :-(
You are NOT *more* messed up. You are the same. Just now you have more info that maybe you weren't(or is anyone EVER-ready to hear :-(
You are the same.>I am searching for a new T and dont see my neuro until Fri to get a referral so you guys are my only outlet unti then. I am not sure I can make it.... this stuff is heavy and I am shaking while typing.
**You CAN make it. Its SOOOOOOOOOOO hard, but you have the advantage of 'parts' to help out...
And yes, babble is great. It has its flaws, be wary, but mostly its great.>I didn't even suspect since my memories are so suppressed but that probably why when I tried to access them I hit a wall that felt real although it was in my head.My husband is gone and it is just my son and I here and I had to dissociate until he went to bed.
**thats OK. As long as your son is safe, thats fine. Dissociating can be a very useful tool.
Now can you find ways to self soothe? Things that make you feel better/calmer? Deep breaths. A good book? Just gazing at your beautiful child? Praying to a higher power? Knitting? Cleaning? Talking to a friend? Baking? these are some ideas. Not T.V. though, T.V. can be triggering unexpectedly.>I also did that while I was hearing it from my aunt. Anyone there.....I need someone to talk to......I can't say anything about it cause it hurts so much.
**Sorry it hurts :-(
Just try and remember, this sounds silly, but emotions DO pass...they ease up some from time to time, and then we can breath for a bit.
You are the same person you were before you had this new info. You've had a shock though :-(
I think reality can be especially hard for dissociatives to handle sometimes...
But here it is.
And you have made it this far.
And you gonna be OK.
And if its your ikid thats freaking too, mebbe you can rock and chant something like'its OK' over and over until you fall asleep.
Hope you can settle with this some soon.
And find a T that 'fits'.
Maybe you could work on a list of questions to ask prospective T's?
And I have read some good ideas bout T hunting and questions to ask on the internet.
Take care,
Muffled
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