Posted by gazo on May 10, 2007, at 8:16:09
In reply to Re: ***suicide triggers*** Cupcakes for (((Gazo))), posted by Wittgenstein on May 10, 2007, at 5:13:32
waffley things are welcome too :o)i had forgotten you were in the Netherlands...it must be beautiful there now. Can you see mountains from where you are? i am sad to say i don't know much about the geography of Europe in general... never was a subject i studied much.
i am doing better, esp in the day time. There are factors out of my control which make me drop suddenly but i try hard otherwise to improve. i have a small list of errands to do today and i will feel good if i can at least do that. It would be *something.*
On the weekend i'd like to drive to my favourite place in the world. It's a beach where the waves roll in long stretches... beautiful sand, salt air... in the summer it's warm enough to swim (barely). i have been to beaches from Spain to california and this one can match any of them IMO.
It's my cathedral. i go there and talk to the ocean. No sh*t. i know how weird that sounds, esp from me as i am not into anything like that... no religion or anything. But the ocean is a bit different for me.
Problem is that the beach is a couple of hours from here... moocho petrol. i need every dime to keep seeing T. Sad times.Once the insurance ends i have to find a way to pay for it... $140 per session. Ouch.
i am holding on as best i can.. just keep fingers and toes crossed that the external factors stay manageable. That is where the big problem is.
much love and peace
poster:gazo
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