Posted by muffled on April 23, 2007, at 13:59:55
OK so I not supportive i am sorry but I got a question.
I am alcoholic(dry 10 yrs). So lotsa my life I bullshitted to hide addiction. Now I hate b*llshit, I try to not b*llshit.
So w/sex, I used to do it OK, but it was kinda b*llshit, cuz it was hard for me to do, but I pretend its OK.
So now I just don't do it, cuz I figger its b*llshit to pretend. I want to be honest. So what I supposed to do? LIE? Just dissoc and do it? I don't want lies. I thot sex in marriage was supposed to be bout love or something? or is it merely getting rocks off and thats all? I am confused. I feel I should 'do it', but that if I do, its a lie. Cuz it makes me feel really bad.
Muffled
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