Posted by Dinah on June 19, 2006, at 1:25:56
In reply to Re: (((((Dinah))))), posted by annierose on June 18, 2006, at 19:59:51
of so many things.
One of which is that I've been unfair to him. Today really wasn't all that bad. It felt sort of adversarial, but I came in full of anger, however coldly expressed. Some of it might have reflected back to me.
I was playing with my iPod today and found the recordings I've made of his voicemails over the years. And the relaxation tape.
I was filled with the desire to call and take everything back. To hope he can forgive me like he's forgiven me so many times before.
He really does have many fine and useful qualities. And it's only been the last eight months that he's been hurting me. D*mn Katrina.
I think I'm more scared of getting over him than I am of being hurt by him.
Maybe it's my fault I hurt. Maybe my expectations are unrealistic. In fact I know they are. I'm too needy.
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