Posted by fairywings on August 13, 2005, at 20:42:52
I haven't posted for quite a long time because I have been pretty upset. It didn't work out with the T I was seeing. I got a lot accomplished, I liked him - even though he was harsh sometimes, he validated things that I had a lot of guilt about, he pointed out my irrational thinking, he helped me see things I could improve - which I have, but he forced me to take a good look at things about myself that aren't so great, things that I think conflicted with him, which in turn caused me to do some work on myself. So that's the good part.
The last session (almost 2 weeks ago) was good, then took a turn for the worse. I said something not really thinking much about it, and then he asked me a few questions that he shouldn't have asked. Anyway, I answered them, and it didn't go well from there. He went on vacation, and I cancelled my appt. I'm not seeing him any more, and I'm sorry it didn't work out, and yet I think, in the long run, it will be for the best. I think I'm going to try to start over with someone my p-doc recommended.
Anyway, I have a question. That T suggested I read "Homecoming" by John Bradshaw. It's about reclaiming your inner child, which I like the concept of, but now, I find that the inner child, as maybe a 5 or 6 year old, is present a lot more than I anticipated. Is that normal? Will it subside? Not that I want to "get rid" of that part of me, it's just that I already have 4 kids, and too much chatter, I really didn't know this would happen. It's not constant or anything, but now I'm afraid to go forward and work on any other parts of me, for fear that I'll have them in my head all the time too. They weren't there before. I don't want to reject parts of me, but I just can't deal with that. What do I do? Has anyone read this book, has anyone done inner child work, and is this normal? What happens now? Do I keep going, or is it likely that I'll end up with parts if I keep going?
fairywings
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