Posted by alexandra_k on June 27, 2005, at 19:41:58
In reply to Re: What do I think we should do in therapy sessions, posted by cricket on June 27, 2005, at 8:27:21
> I know what you mean.
:-)
>My T and I have been letting the voices talk for themselves, one per session.
Oh. Really? I don't want them to talk. I will 'convey' their thoughts sometimes. But I really don't want them to say anything. Do you remember the sessions? Do you remember what they say?
Oh yes, they yell. A lot. In therapy too. Sometimes it is really hard to think what I am going to say, or think about how I feel or whatever because they are so loud.> Please continuing posting. Maybe we can help each other.
:-)
Hmm.
I have talked to my t a bit about what it means to me to get better. Sometimes... Sometimes I don't hear them for a while. A few days. A week. I manage to convince myself that it is all in my imagination and really they aren't there, and they never were, and I'm just making up stories or something. Then they come back full force and I can't ignore them. But sometimes they really do seem to just disappear. Thats what getting better means to me. That they just disappear and go away forever.:-(
Thats supposed to be a bad way of looking at it.
:-(
But I do want them to go away.I miss a lot of time.
A lot.
And usually... I miss the knowledge that I've been missing time, if you get what I mean. Just think that it is a little odd that I've been sleeping 13 hours of the day... Or things just get a little hazy... My memory is fairly appalling.They talk to me a bit.
In the last session we talked about my relationship mostly to one of them in particular. But little bits about a couple of others. How my relationship to them was similar / different.
And I got to talking about how sometimes I miss time.
And about how sometimes I am aware of their presence.
And about how sometimes it is like I am standing a little behind myself
Watching them do stuff...
I don't like that.
:-(
Do you get that?
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