Posted by 10derHeart on June 19, 2005, at 18:51:49
In reply to wrote and sent this letter to T today, posted by Shortelise on June 18, 2005, at 1:22:10
ShoertE,
This was awesome. So articulate and emotional all at once - not an easy mix to achieve. You are a wonderful writer.
I love that you sent it to him. And I REALLY love what you posted below about all the things you did, and in what order, since that last appt. day!
It really struck me and I'm so impressed. You really are so strong in all of this, you know.Allowing yourself even the most awful of feelings, but not acting, instead reaching out for IRL help, Babbling, taking a walk, gardening, etc. - what a litany of healthy, constructive things to do! That reads like a blueprint for anyone else struggling with the pain this odd and confusing termination has put you through.
I so, so pray he answers and/or reaches out a hand to you. I remember your therapy relatrionship was long and good. This just doesn't seem like him. More like something he's programmed himself to do because he's *supposed* to. Ironic, isn't it? T's so often fight to help us stop doing destructive behaviors simply out of a *supposed to* attitude. Now look at him :-(
I wish you good sleep, lots of distractions, an understanding husband, beautiful garden and more long walks, dear ShortE. Hugs, - 10der
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