Posted by Dinah on May 17, 2005, at 19:37:18
In reply to Re: Loss » Dinah, posted by cricket on May 17, 2005, at 16:19:26
We've talked about it. He jokes about being a senile old man hobbling in with his walker and nodding off and my not being able to tell the difference. He's only about five or six years older than I am. It's funny, because I see him as this wise person, but in truth he was younger than I am now when I first started seeing him.
He also says that if he gets a full time job, he'll still keep a part time practice.
He says that as long as I find it useful, I can come in forever as far as he's concerned. I suspect he says that because abandonment issues consumed so much of our time, but I also believe he means it. So unless he moves or has incapacitating health problems, I think I can count on him being there.
But he might have incapacitating health problems (although he's promised to do his darndest to outlive me). And worse yet, if anything happens to his marriage, he might yet move. I pray for a continued good marriage for him.
And how can I trust him not to change his mind about a part time practice? He did that once before since I've been seeing him. Worked a nearly full time job and saw clients part time. He wasn't at his best those years, but it's better than being - gasp - terminated.
It is so weird that this topic that consumed our first seven or eight years of therapy is suddenly rearing its ugly head again. I thought I had it conquered.
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