Posted by Tamar on May 15, 2005, at 18:33:06
In reply to Re: Do any of you block your T or ex T out? » Tamar, posted by pinkeye on May 15, 2005, at 17:34:46
> Tamar, I think what you have said is extremely important to me. I never allow myself to feel anger - I just realized it. Because I am afraid.
> And I think I bottle it all in. Maybe if I did what you have suggested, maybe I would have gotten it out, and maybe the real feelings would have still remained. I remember I blocked lot of stuff from my childhood, and even pretty much in adult hood. If it hurts me, I kind of block it out - not fully perhaps, but a good exten, and I think that is perhaps why it takes a long long time for me to make peace with anything.
Well, maybe it's something you can talk about with your T, as she's trying to encourage you to feel angry.> He is a very nice person. I think he is a little bit like my father - little angry, and less emotional, and very non religious, and wanting to do good for the society but not having too much of a clue how to really do good. But I feel if he becomes slightly more religious, and soft, and more emotionally aware, then he will really shine - I so desperately want him not to end up like my father. I really feel like sending him a mail one day, pointing out some of the mistakes that I thought he was making. But I think it is perhaps my projection.
It might be something like projection, since you say you don't want him to end up like your father. But I think he is probably different from your father in some important ways. And maybe that will keep him from becoming like your father. What do you think?
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