Posted by alexandra_k on May 14, 2005, at 6:00:02
In reply to No more responses....please......., posted by shrinking violet on May 14, 2005, at 3:08:11
I tried.
But I just can't forget about you.
:-)
Besides which you can't say stuff and then say 'no responses please'. I have a right of response... Don't I???
<that was intended as gentle teasing>But I think I do get what you mean.
Sometimes I post stuff...
And then sometimes I just need to drop it.
In order to carry on.
In order to keep up the semblance of coping
I need to put it away for a while.
But people keep responding
(Which generally is a terrific thing)
But sometimes I just don't have the energy
strength
something...
To be able to respond as I feel I should do for having started the whole thing in the first place.So.
Here I am responding...
But...
To take the pressure off you
YOU DO NOT HAVE TO RESPOND TO MY POST.
Really.
I won't feel upset or neglected or anything.
Cause you wanted to drop the thread
So you don't have to reply
Though you can if you want to.I hope the way of seeing the book helped.
Really.Maybe...
Maybe she was a bit embarrassed about the gifts.
One of my t's gave me something.
Maybe this is odd but it just never occured to me to get her anything for our last session.
I was really really embarrased.
I must have looked it at the time.
But in hindsight... I think of it as really sweet.I think...
That maybe she will too.I get what you mean about the book.
Right now you just feel sad.
And alone.
I get that.
Really I do.
My p-doc recently terminated me...But...
Don't forget that we are here.
I guess that this place is my therapy.
Sometimes I worry a bit that that isn't fair on the posters here.
But. Well. Thats just the way it is.
So.
We are here.
I know its not the same.
Really.
But it is infinitely better than nothing.
And the value of it shouldn't be underestimated.
It is even better than therapy in a way.
Because the therapist is one
One opinion
One thought or whatever.
But here there are many.
And that is good.
I guess the attachment isn't there
Or if it is it is different.
But I can't decide whether that is a good thing or not.
Hard to know.Yeah.
So it is different.
But it still helps.Just wanted you to know that you are not alone.
And we know...
I know
How much time and thought you put in to what to get her
And just how sweet that was.
And it is b*llshit that she is better off without you.
It is.And we are here
For when you feel sad
and alone
and mad
and anything at all.
Take care.
poster:alexandra_k
thread:497356
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