Posted by pinkeye on April 28, 2005, at 13:30:45
Today, I am feeling like going back to my old T, and saying sorry for whatever I put him through. Tell him I didn't mean it. Tell him that I understood that he never meant to hurt me - not even a bit. Tell him that all that hurt and disappointment and frustration was really about my dad and not about him. Tell him that all my attraction towards him was all what was caused by my dad's inappropriate behaviour towards me and that I just projected everything on to him.
I just want to apologize to him for making my therapy with him more than he was ever willing to give it to me.. and just trying to hang on hang on to him, when he said so many times to find someone else nearby who I could visit and be on face to face with. I feel like I just kept pushing me on to him all these years and I was just trying to stretch him to the US model when I should have understood his style in India was totally different.
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