Posted by 10derHeart on March 14, 2005, at 22:01:23
In reply to When is Enough Enough?(long, and **Trigger*), posted by antigua on March 14, 2005, at 15:49:27
Hi Antigua,
What Dinah asked you, about meds and depression, I was wondering, too, but hesitant to suggest, not *knowing* you at all. I didn't want to it to come out wrong, since this is clearly a long, complicated, exhausting road you've been on. And I don't mean to sound like, "oh, here's the answer," or anything like that. You are clearly a fighter, and very brave.
But when I read certain phrases, all taken together, I did immediately wonder if maybe meds need adjusting. I haven't had much personal experience, as I've been blessed in that one AD has always worked for me. Your post "painted a picture" to me, though, because when I've been descending into a bad state in the past (off AD or dose too low), they sound so very, very familiar:
> Last week I had a meltdown.
> ...I literally couldn't get out of bed. It was scary.
> I just couldn't fight how I felt.
>I'm sick of feeling so low and so tired. I can't eat again, I can't read or write, or even cry. >All I can do is sleep.
> "No one can help me" just kept running through my head.
> I am the only one who can do this and it's a race to see whether I will kill myself first or I will succeed in my battle.
> I can't kill myself because my children still need me; that's the only thing keeping me alive today.Of course, I could be completely off base here. Things are rarely that simple. But I just wanted to mention I also wondered about your depression level. And sometimes I have been so busy working out the complex relationship stuff (with T's, etc.) I've utterly missed the signals of worsening depression until someone else said something. I suppose it wouldn't hurt to consider a meds check/change first, before any big decisions, just in case?
My best to you, and hugs if okay. -- 10derHeart
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