Posted by browneyedgirl827 on September 18, 2006, at 21:51:31
At the beginning of July, my boyfriend's father passed away suddenly of a heart attack in the car on his way to work. I was there when he and his sister found out and was his main support system through the whole ordeal. I took them both to the hospital to identify the body and helped with the funeral arrangements. All of this and I was just 19. I wasn't very close with his father, but it still greatly affected me. Seeing them both drop into heaps on the floor overtaken with grief...it's still an image that's implanted in my mind and it seems like just yesterday all this happened. Because I was there during this time and I knew they needed my help, I never really spent time for my own grieving and focused on the two of them instead of how I was feeling. It was fine for a while, but now I think the fact that he's gone has really gotten to me (finally). I've been so worried lately about my own father and freaked out the other day when I couldn't get in touch with him (I later found out he was at a different location at work). With the stress that my junior year of college has now put on me, I'm finding it extremely difficult to keep my mind of the things I need to get done and I keep drifting off to the memories of my bf's father and of the funeral. Any sort of help would be appreciated. The last time I dealt with any sort of grief was back in high school and I was able to get my emotions in order right away.
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