Posted by Sebastian on September 6, 2004, at 15:00:24
In reply to Suicide, posted by JF on September 5, 2004, at 0:25:17
Its normal. Thats what I have to deal with every day. My freind died 3 years ago. I was very emotional about it for the first 3 months, but I knew that I was only around people who would not understand, so I kept the fealings to myself. Later on I just felt cold and emotionless, I still do. I'm trying to deal with it now, but its not easy, no one cares. The problem is I have no emotional contact with anyone of the victims freinds. So for the last 3 years I've been taking more and more medicine. I was blamed by the locals and felt I had to move, so I did. No one was ever willing to talk about it. I feel lost, hopless, I hate myself, but I am blamed for it all. There is no emotional out for me. I don't even know why my freind died, I only saw it happen. Why were they on top of an oil tank? I don't know, but it blew up. What can I say, I have a huge emotional void.
poster:Sebastian
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