Posted by sarita0001 on October 11, 2003, at 21:57:29
In reply to From Heaven to Hell and ending up (in)different., posted by DayByDay on September 30, 2003, at 6:21:58
Hi,
I don't know if you'll get this but I hope you do because I can relate so much to what you wrote. I also don't feel like myself and I often miss my old self. I am in school as well, and this semester my concentration is non-existent, I am not motivated and do the work but am not into it. Last semester was great, things were going well. I had a bad experience with Topamax that is still continuing to haunt me. I gained 20 lbs over the course of 2 years and tried everything to shake it off. The doctor and I agreed I would switch from Lithium to Lamictal after spring semester. But I was so sick of being fat, I decided to take Topamax because I was really busy at school and I figured it would help me out. It ended up giving me bad side effects which make me feel so self-conscious. My self-confidence these days is so low and of course the self-blame kills me. It really is a day to day thing with me.
So anyways, I told you my story so that you'll know you're not alone. Being in school is hard when there are so many things going on. This year I have wanted to quit so many times even though I will graduate in May. So hang in there and I wish you the best. The truth is I think it takes a lot of patience.
Sara
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