Posted by rayww on September 30, 2003, at 17:23:40
In reply to From Heaven to Hell and ending up (in)different., posted by DayByDay on September 30, 2003, at 6:21:58
This certainly sounds bipolar. My disorder affected my grief in a big way. It's like the grief attacks and "then" you find something or create something to grieve about. Our bodies and minds are strange companions some times. They need to learn how to work together. Think in terms of body / mind / spirit. All three need attention and nurturing. Balance is of course the ideal, but when balance is lost (grief) it is difficult to tip the scale so that it ends up where you want it. You either put too much weight into spiritual and off set physical, or put too much into physical and lose control of the other. The only thing I have ever tried that honestly helped me restore my own balance, you know, gave me the tools to actually help myself, was Truehope (EmPower Plus) http/www/truehope.com
I took the full dosage for a few months until I began to feel a little over-loaded (you'll know what I mean if you try it) Then I decided to stop, and the polar symptoms returned, so I went back on for a few more months. I stopped again, once my life was more balanced, (this is not just about a disorder, it is also about what happens to life at the same time). So when maneuvering through my balanced life became less stressful I went off the supplements successfully. A few times I felt that "grief/lost/disoriented feeling" so I just took a (very)small handful of the EMPower in the morning, and by night I felt better, or else I took them at night, and felt somewhat better by morning. It's just my own experiment, but it seems to be working. Maybe I should add, I have never been a substance abuser, not even a user. And I have worked hard to develop strong values and not betray myself. It all pays off in the long run I think. I'm 54, living in the pay off stage of life, and it is pretty sweet for the most part. Funny how, as your title suggests, we must do quite a bit of travelling to find ourselves. Try to stay on the road to faith, even tho it's hard to see right now. You'll eventually come out of this, perhaps even sooner than you think. Maybe some was washed out in the writing even. Take care.
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