Posted by Dena on September 10, 2003, at 15:27:45
In reply to Name a Pain, posted by rayww on September 10, 2003, at 10:12:20
Here goes, Ray -
What loss are you feeling at this moment, other than loss from a death?>>> I'm feeling concerned (because I was told that I exhibit obsessive-compulsive tendencies) I'm feeling fearful, because it's been suggested that I stop posting on these boards.
Are you suffering physical pain?>>> Full bladder pain (well, that speaks for the compulsive tendency - I've been sitting here, typing with my legs crossed so that I can finish this post, rather than just get up & use the bathroom!). Seriously, I'm aware of a tightening in my stomach area (anxiety).
What emotional pain are you emoting?>>> anxiety.
Are you in a spiritual void?>>> only that I'm aware that I'm reluctant to listen to what God may be telling me through this person (my priest's wife). I'll get quiet soon enough & listen, after I pitch my hissy fit first.
Are you in social vacuum?>>> Ha! I'm surrounded by multitudes! I interact with people every day, like it or not (not referring to my children here). I could use a best friend, though. I lost one recently, although our relationship wasn't healthy for me, I still feel the void.
A mental frenzy?>>> Yes, my mind is very full, & I'm exhausted trying to keep track of all the different categories (trying to control?).
Think, physical, mental, social, spiritual.
>>>I know I'm not at peace. I'm resisting letting go of some things I think I need to. I have such a hard time letting go...
Shalom, Dena
P.S. Ok, just took a break to check out OCD. I took several self-tests. Nope, I'm not OCD. It seems that I do have obsessive-compulsive tendencies - I can really get charged up with something that interests me, & I feel eager to pursue it, & annoyed when I get distracted. So what's that? Just normal? Creative? An overwhelmed Mama in search of diversion?
poster:Dena
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