Posted by Immolate on June 25, 2007, at 2:07:32
In reply to I want my pain to show, posted by Maxime on December 9, 2006, at 21:55:55
do NOT feel ashamed.
i feel where you are coming from. i felt like that for so long. i starved myself because i wanted people to see but at the same time i liked feeling restricted and constantly empty. i emotionally felt empty, so i starved myself and the pain that physically filled me filled me emotionally too. i wasnt thin enough until people told me i was too thin. and even then that was a general idea of how thin i should be.
ive discovered lately that when my dad sees that im doing well, he backs off and leaves me alone. and when he sees me in turmoil, he spends time with me and talks with me... when really what i need is someone who is always interested in my wellbeing, especially when i start doing better. otherwise, how am i supposed to know im doing things right?
hey. do this. take care of yourself first and foremost. and make sure that in taking care of yourself you are doing it the right way (just coming from personal experience, i was abusing myself for a long time and realized it was a weird way of me trying to nurture myself). and one thing i found lately that helped me out a lot is "you have to respect yourself with the same respect that you wish to be treated" i found it enlightening.
best of luck! (im new here. sorry if i did anything abnormal. haha)
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