Posted by karen_kay on June 19, 2007, at 11:45:08
In reply to kk and phillipa » karen_kay, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on June 4, 2007, at 20:08:32
that's what i don't get...
i think it's the paranoia setting in...
are you eating well now dear?
i had a grilled cheese yesterday for lunch and a bowl of raisin bran for dinner (ok, it was at midnight, but that counts as dinner, right?) (that's good considering i'll go days without eating.) and i hate hearing 'force yourself, you jsut have to force yourself' i'm near forcing my fist down someone's throat! my good friends know that 'skinny kk' is not 'mentally healthy kk'. and i don't even feel i have a right to say anythin, i'm not mary kate (or is ti ashely? i can't tell them apart anyway, they are twins... i'm in a normal bmi. i'm at 143 lbs, somewhere between 57 and 5 10, sorry, i don't ahvge a tape measure handy and now i'm confused abgout my own height. i've been realy confused lately and stressed out, can you tell? but, all these bruises are concerning. and this 'not eating si concerning. and i hate hearing comments like 'why don't you eat' or even 'it's good to see you eat' when i do, you know? sorry, should i have started a different thread? i figured maybe you were going through the same thing, as i don't have a problem eatign when i'm aroudn others either, it's jsut IN THIS HOUSE!) that's why my mother thinks i look good (and why am i getting close to my mother now? she's buying my shoes, clothes, things for the duckie.. that's certainly unhealthy. it's like she's my 'ally in complaint'. i don't like talkign to her everyday, she is the devil and one should not be this close to the devil...)
anywhooo i'll try to eat better if you do, ok? we can do it together. plus, i thought i had dirt on my face and my friend remarked 'no, it's your cheekbones' wowsa! i hate hearing 'you look good' when i know i'm unhealthy.
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