Posted by Sonya on October 10, 2005, at 8:00:09
In reply to Sonya?, posted by Maxime on October 10, 2005, at 1:20:39
Hi Maxime
Thanks for your concern. After my pdoc's lecture of last Friday I increased my caloric intake this weekend. I GAINED 2 LBS! When I got on the scale this morning, I got so depressed. I feel like a total failure. I didn't eat any junk food, just small portions of protein (chicken, eggs) and more veggies. So today I'm back to 500 cal or less and I don't care what pdoc says. I'm petrified of gaining. Besides the additional calories didn't make me feel any better. I was still real tired by mid-day. I think it's the Wellbutrin.
I'm so sorry you've been dealing with your ED for so long. It must be very disabling. I know I get too preoccupied with my diet so it's hard to think about anything else. It feels like it becomes my life, the only reason why I keep living. If I get fat again, I don't want to live...I hate myself too much.
> Hi Sonya, I was wondering how you are doing? Are you still eating more now? Do you feel any better?
>
> I'm in my mid 30's and my ED started when I was around 12 or 13 and I had body issue problems since I was 8 or 9? I can't exactly remember.
>
> I can't get rid of this beast. It's me ... I am scared to let go.
>
> Maxime
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