Posted by galkeepinon on October 29, 2003, at 1:49:24
In reply to Re: My email to Bob 10:40pm PST » galkeepinon, posted by shar on October 28, 2003, at 20:03:16
Shar,
I'm sorry that Sar's incident was more poignant for you, I understand.
Thank you for reminding me that things CAN change, I appreciate that. Sometimes believing it is much harder for me.
I can relate to your animal amalogy, I am a total dog person, have been since I was little. I understand your point, I really do. Your example was meaningful to me.
Hopefully you have seen my post 'Follow Up'.
Regarding absolution, I don't expect anyone who was hurt by what I did a few months ago to be buddy buddy with me. I have accepted that even in real life, offline, people are people, I cannot change them. I'm now trying to put myself in their positions as to how I would feel if the tables were turned. I'm learning...
My post 'Follow Up' gave my goals and reasons for wanting to be here. You gave me a lot of good questions, thanks.
Life is so precious, I agree, it got so overwhelming for me and I couldn't take it anymore. It started to remind me of the horrible rejection I received in my past, not only from peers, but my own father and my grandmother, I'm just trying to move on. Maybe this will help me finally come to terms with the fact that rejection will and does happen in life. My therapist gave me some really good insight this morning concerning that and my own personal values, standards, etc.
Hey, I still cannot dismiss previous events concerning my father, so I understand what you're saying. *head down*
This board is part of my support system, and it makes me feel good knowing that I can help others in some way because I can't work right now, so I'm limited to what I can give in life except on the internet.
I just keep telling myself that the past is done, it's unchangeable, I have to move on. This is in no way meant to discount the people who were really hurt by my actions, and it has taught me a lot about other people's feelings when at that time, I was so into my own.
I'm going to be looking for some other boards also, I know there's tons out there.
Yeah, the topic of posters changing names is another story, but that's ok, people do it for different reasons and they're entitled to that, imo.
It does make it hard sometimes for us all, I wish it didn't have to be that way, but I guess it just is.
>>>>>>>Gal has seemed a positive influence, and I have no desire that you leave.Thanks Shar and take care.
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