Posted by Emme on October 28, 2003, at 7:43:12
In reply to My email to Bob 10:40pm PST, posted by galkeepinon on October 28, 2003, at 0:45:43
Kristen,
No one wants you dead. It *is* good that you are still alive.
In your distress you seem to me to be generalizing about the whole board and what's going on is not so black and white. It's a mixed bag. I can't speak for everyone, but I know I and several others don't hate you. A number of people are understandably very angry and. Some may stay permanently angry. Some don't sound so angry to me. There are people happy to have you here. I think you need to give it time, ride out the hard parts as best you can, and earn back more trust bit by bit. I am on my guard, but I do see that you've been trying to be suportive and I'd be glad if you are able to keep working in that vein.
What concerns me at the moment is that your post sounds radically different from the other Galkeepinon posts I've been seeing recently. It's easier said than done, but please take a step back, take many deep breaths and try to focus on what's been going well. You're obviously hurting a lot and your posts indicates to me that you are contemplating suicide. At the moment you need help closer to home. Please use the suicide online service if you need to. Go to the ER if you need to. Hang on tight through your current crisis and resume being a supportive member.
Emme
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