Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on September 29, 2011, at 21:56:18
In reply to Re: I'm starting to regret my hate messages » rjlockhart04-08, posted by Zyprexa on September 26, 2011, at 0:41:31
my mother isnt that bad. I keep blaming people for the way my outcomes came out. I need to start taking responsiblity for my own choices. My mom loves me and maybe a little too much. The reason I got angry with this sitaution is because I can't go back on stimulants because of my mother. That's why I resent her. Now to be realistic, that's not really a valid reason to be mad about that. There are alot of people who go through abuse in homes and never live with that person again.
The thing is I can't hold a job with out taking stimulants. Today I got sent home for not being productive and it really SUCKS. I feel so bad about myself because I didt reach my goals to move out.
My mother is not psychially abusive nor emotionally abusive. There is just one rule in the house. No Stimulants allowed in the house. She does track what I do and makes sure i don't go to diffrent doctors to get what I want. And maybe that is good thing. I wished I had someone else in my life that would love me. I mean there's my brother and he doesnt show much love to me anymore because i refused to speak with him and it just made everything fall apart relationship wise.
Thanks Zyprexa. I will find a job.
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