Posted by sunkistcat79 on January 7, 2009, at 15:04:01
Hello,
In the midst of a severe depression, I was prescribed oxycodone for pain. The results were an almost complete lifting of an almost 2 decade depression - I was left alert, calm, stable, happy...NOT manic, drugged, or "high" feeling.
I read every article I could find on opioids and depression (and comprehended the academic/neuropsychological texts better than I have ever remembered comprehending anything) and started taking Burprenorphine (subutex). At the time, I had also been taking wellbutrin and lexapro. At first, the bupe. offer the same exact results as the oxycodone.
So, I began my slow tapers from wellbutrin and lexapro. All my problems began to slowly return... along with other typical lexapro withdrawals symptoms (brain zaps, nausea).
However, after the withdrawals should have stopped, the Depression was back in full force.
So, after a while, I went back on the wellbutrin and lexapro, thinking I needed to replicate the exact circumstances of when the opioids worked.
Nothing.
After months and months, I finally weaned off the subutex.
Again, I find myself in a place of total despair. I can't help thinking about the NORMAL way I felt when the BUPRENORPHINE worked and that I need that feeling back (I'm not looking to get high...never was...never did.). I took oxycodone for 2 weeks before being switched to subutex (so I did not have the typical experience of an "addict").
I know people wrote on here about taking bupe. for years and it working wonders. It worked wonders for me....but only about a month.
And for those of you who don't know, they prescribe bupe. to people trying to stop being addicted to opioids for 2 basic reasons:
1. There is a ceiling effect - you don't build up a tolerance and need more and more for the same effect.
2. It does not provide you with a "high" feelingI just put in my order to LDN(naloxene sp?)...but past that....
HELP?!?!
Does anyone have any idea why the bupe. stopped working??
I plan on trying it again because I believe that this is the chemical my body needs in order to function.HELP!
(I been on over a dozen regualar psychotropics and I could have bought a small country with the amount of money I spent on supplements. On a scale of 1-100, the greatest relief I ever got on a psychotropic or a supplement was a 9. On buprenorphine...99)
thanks,
sunkistcat79
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