Posted by SLS on April 19, 2004, at 10:10:36
In reply to Re: ATTN Scotty, posted by SLS on April 19, 2004, at 6:45:26
One more thought, Ace.
Here I go babbling:
I have had intrusive thoughts from time to time, especially when my depression is more severe. I've learned to allow the thoughts to occur without resistance. After the initial thought completes itself, I have learned to simply ignore it, realizing that it is OK to have these aberrant thoughts. Let it go. Don't pay any attention to the content of the thoughts. Don't pay any attention to them at all. Don't even bother saying "no". Watch. Give the thought permission to say whatever it wants to. Let the thought complete what itself. Let every bad thought happen without interference. Do not attend to them. Give yourself permission to have these thoughts. Think of these aberrant thoughts as something that is generated spontaneously by the aberrant biology of your brain. The thought is the disease talking - NOT YOU. It is an abnormal spontaneous electrical storm triggered within the brain - just like a Tourette bark is. Let it happen. Just smile and continue to do what you were doing. Don't react. You'll see that the thought by itself has no power. Watch the bad thought come and go. They just come and go when they are left alone. Watch you'll see.
I just had one: "If I were to kill my grandmother tomorrow, I would get her bequeaths sooner so that I can pay my bills." OK. So? That was interesting. Now I'll continue typing and thinking about what I want to say to you next. I know that I love my grandmother and would never kill her for the money. That's what's real. The intrusive and unwelcome thought is over. I'll probably have more. No big deal. I don't feel guilty for having these thoughts because they are not really mine. It is the illness talking - NOT YOU.
- Scott
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