![[dr. bob]](/dr-bob-sm.gif)
Dr. Bob is Robert Hsiung, MD,
bob@dr-bob.orgShown: posts 1 to 10 of 10. This is the beginning of the thread.
Posted by Ivan Michael on September 25, 2004, at 12:41:33
sorrie that i havent been posting at all since last year. life for me just kinda............... sucks........... right now. everiething seems so wrong and i cant do aniething about it. my friend is in some psychward with cuts all over her legs because she tried to kill herself by overdosing 2 days ago. i tried to calm er down that night and she even promised that she wouldnt go too far.
i dont know what to do. my life seems so pointless. i cant help aniebodie. i cant even help myself. most days i just want to lay down in bed and never get up because i cant handle it. i need to get on some new meds or something; i dont know. i'm just so lost right now. i feel so useless.
(i'll try to check back before next weekend. no promises.)
Posted by B2Chica on September 27, 2004, at 13:45:14
In reply to hi again everieone., posted by Ivan Michael on September 25, 2004, at 12:41:33
Ivan!!!
it's so good to hear your wonderful "voice". i am sorry to hear you are suffering right now.
and sorry to hear about your friend-she must have been in a terrible place. i just want to say that you are an incredible friend to be there for her the way you were/are. people should be so lucky.
sometimes things do feel hopeless but please just hang in ther IVAN, you are SO worth fighting for. and let's face it, you've got some rebellious attitude in ya don't ya? let it loose on this depression. just take it day by day. and talking with your pdoc about possible medication change is a good idea.Keep popping in when you can! i miss you.
B2c.
> sorrie that i havent been posting at all since last year. life for me just kinda............... sucks........... right now. everiething seems so wrong and i cant do aniething about it. my friend is in some psychward with cuts all over her legs because she tried to kill herself by overdosing 2 days ago. i tried to calm er down that night and she even promised that she wouldnt go too far.
>
> i dont know what to do. my life seems so pointless. i cant help aniebodie. i cant even help myself. most days i just want to lay down in bed and never get up because i cant handle it. i need to get on some new meds or something; i dont know. i'm just so lost right now. i feel so useless.
> (i'll try to check back before next weekend. no promises.)
Posted by Ivan Michael on September 27, 2004, at 15:49:40
In reply to Re: hi again everieone., posted by B2Chica on September 27, 2004, at 13:45:14
thank you verie much. i'm so glad someone posted me back. i should have known that if anieone would it'd be you. :) *hug*
i got some stuff to say though:
#1. i'm not on medication. i took myself off it last may (made me worse)#2. "she must have been in a terrible place"-she put herself there and her friends were making it worse. they told her aunt about all her problems and she was trying to get better. she felt like she couldn't trust anieone.
#3. "you are an incredible friend"- i'm verie hard on myself. i wish i could've done more.
#4. yes i've been goin through bad times but some of it is because i'm on my downsloap that happens everie so often. the rest is familie, school, friend, and girlfriend instabillitie. my girlfriend and i are still together and getting closer but we talked about breaking up everieday for about a month. last saturday was 1year and 3months. we seem okay right now.
I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!! (especiallie you B2Chica. you were always here to chat when i needed it)
Posted by just plain jane on September 27, 2004, at 17:52:19
In reply to hi again everieone., posted by Ivan Michael on September 25, 2004, at 12:41:33
though I don't know you, I know the agony of how you feel
please continue to come and express yourself
I came and found people who understand.
That in itself is supportive, even if they don't directly post to me, I read what's going on in their lives and minds and feel their turmoil and joy, and know I am not alone.
Posted by Susan47 on September 27, 2004, at 18:36:39
In reply to Re: hi again everieone. » Ivan Michael, posted by just plain jane on September 27, 2004, at 17:52:19
Ditto, and so lovely in expression :) Ivan ... what a lovely name you have.
Posted by B2Chica on September 28, 2004, at 14:21:43
In reply to B2Chica, posted by Ivan Michael on September 27, 2004, at 15:49:40
I'll take that hug but it'd better be a bear hug!
-are you happy to be off the meds? i was recently taken off all mine as well- now just on trazadone for sleep (though that's not working anymore). but my new pdoc is reevaluating me-kinda starting from scratch and he doens't believe in tons of medications. he's really great.
-are you being monitored being off? still checking in with pdoc and stuff? at least a GP just to make sure your bod's ok.-i am assuming her aunt just made things worse for her. i am sorry to hear that. life can be such a terrible struggle sometimes, but just keep that fire in your belly and we'll pull eachother through even if we get scraped up along the way!
-and please know that you ARE a great friend. you did Exactly what you should have done. everyone reacts differently when their in "that place". you never know what to say afraid to set them off, or send them running. it's best sometimes to just say nothing and hold their hand-just letting them know you are there.
AND believe me when i say, no matter WHAT happens to your friend (or anyone else in your life) you do NOT control others responses to you or their actions. that is NOT your responsibility, you can ONLY control yourself and the words you say and the actions you take.
i think you did a great job and ARE an incredible friend!
and no denying it or i'll have to spank you ;6)-so sorry to hear about the rough stuff with your girlfriend and all. Sometimes the pressure of all others just suffocates a person. sometimes it's the most well meaning that makes things the worst for a person.
Just remember-you don't need anymore excess stress. You focus on yourself! and just take ONE DAY at a time. that' all ANYONE can do, and if anyone asks more of you just flat out tell them NO. Sorry, that's all i can promise for right now.
-and i KNOW this isn't what you want to hear but i can't help myself. As much as you two may love eachother-you deserve someone who has no doubts about being with you. to love all of you, to share hopes dreams and truth with you. to stand by your side no matter what. someone that when you're driving down the road in rush hour traffic alone makes you laugh to yourself thinking of something they said or did.
You are a wonderful young man and have SO much to see and do. remember no matter what happens -follow your gut, trust yourself and know that everything happens for a reason. (not to be confused with fate)And here's LOTS o' LOVE right back attcha (((((((((((((Mr.Ivan Michael!))))))))))))))
and some of my super vibes for strength if ya need it >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>later!
B2c.
Posted by partlycloudy on September 29, 2004, at 4:43:41
In reply to hi again everieone., posted by Ivan Michael on September 25, 2004, at 12:41:33
It is so nice to see you back. I missed you.
Posted by Ivan Michael on September 30, 2004, at 19:10:13
In reply to Re: hi again everieone. » Ivan Michael, posted by just plain jane on September 27, 2004, at 17:52:19
yea i know how that is. i've been here for a while and the site is verie good for that.
Posted by Ivan Michael on September 30, 2004, at 19:12:22
In reply to Re: hi again everieone Ivan and » just plain jane, posted by Susan47 on September 27, 2004, at 18:36:39
aww reallie?? everieone else i know hates it. it's actuallie my nickname. funnie thing is my girlfriend actuallie thought it was my name for 2 days. well i like it and thank you for your post.
Posted by Ivan Michael on September 30, 2004, at 19:14:16
In reply to Hi to you, Ivan, posted by partlycloudy on September 29, 2004, at 4:43:41
This is the end of the thread.
Psycho-Babble Social | Extras | FAQ
Dr. Bob is Robert Hsiung, MD,
bob@dr-bob.org
Script revised: February 4, 2008
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/cgi-bin/pb/mget.pl
Copyright 2006-17 Robert Hsiung.
Owned and operated by Dr. Bob LLC and not the University of Chicago.