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Posted by llurpsienoodle on July 23, 2008, at 15:22:44
Yeah, I'm a weakling. I already miss T and it's been less than a week. I've got a LOT going on with work and personal life, and nobody to share with. It's really tough. I told my supervisor at work a little shred of why I'm so scattered and running on 3 hours of sleep. She was concerned and I almost started crying. My tearducts were salivating. or something like that.
My SIL is in town, and she was on her bestest behavior for a few days. I have no idea when she's leaving, but it will probably take at least another 10-20 days. (curses). She is very bossy and opinionated. I've been hiding out in the computer room a lot. She gets frustrated and has an outburst directed towards my h. But I'm sensitive to her outbursts, even when they are not aimed at me personally.
Oh, and it gets better. my mom is coming to visit (surprise!) in 5 days. Help.
sleep is all messed up. appetite is messed up. therapy is non-existent. Hopelessness and apathy wear little puppet costumes trying to disguise their way into my consciousness "here! let's play!"
more curses
-Ll
Posted by stellabystarlight on July 23, 2008, at 15:47:31
In reply to Wah Wah Wah. my T is on summer break, posted by llurpsienoodle on July 23, 2008, at 15:22:44
How long is your t on a summer break? I thought they're suppose to refer you if they're gone for a long time. You're not a weakling...I know that I would be a basket case. I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. Life can be so overwhelmingly hard at times. Take care of yourself.
stellabystarlight
Posted by llurpsienoodle on July 23, 2008, at 17:40:29
In reply to Re: Wah Wah Wah. my T is on summer break, posted by stellabystarlight on July 23, 2008, at 15:47:31
> How long is your t on a summer break? I thought they're suppose to refer you if they're gone for a long time. You're not a weakling...I know that I would be a basket case. I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. Life can be so overwhelmingly hard at times. Take care of yourself.
> stellabystarlightHi Stella,
T is only gone for 7 days. He told me who would be covering for him, but I forgot her name :( :(I just got a card in the mail, which makes me feel happy and sad at the same time. It is from my oldT, who I saw for a little less than a year. The hardest year of my life. She got me through many many crises. She sent a note that we have been communicating a lot this summer, because a flower I gave her has been blooming non-stop a year later. It was so nice to hear from her, but I'm crying right now, because I miss her so much. I miss currenT a lot too, but not in that tender cozy way. Rather, I miss my currenT's ability to make me laugh even while suicidal and his ability to help me wade though a swamp of distress without sinking into a quagmire. I miss his good judgment, and his ability to KNOW me without judging me. To like me despite KNOWING me. To have hope in me even when I have none myself. Ultimately I respect him so much that I am left no choice but to respect the fact that he likes me ergo I am likable.
I meander.
Thanks for your post to me, you are so kind
-Ll
Posted by Dinah on July 23, 2008, at 19:08:40
In reply to Re: Wah Wah Wah. my T is on summer break » stellabystarlight, posted by llurpsienoodle on July 23, 2008, at 17:40:29
It's nice that you had contact from your old therapist during your therapist's break. A little therapist fix.
Do you have any meds on hand to help with the sleep? Lack of sleep can make all the stressors way worse, and start all that nasty physiological stuff.
It's at least good that you have somewhere to hide from your SIL. We have a no houseguest rule in our house. But if we didn't I'd at least insist on a hidey place. One with insulated walls, I think.
Posted by Looney Tunes on July 23, 2008, at 19:40:55
In reply to Wah Wah Wah. my T is on summer break, posted by llurpsienoodle on July 23, 2008, at 15:22:44
Hey. I know how hard it can be when T leaves. Years ago when I had a good T, it was so hard to even miss one session!
One thing I did was try and do something special on the days I was supposed to have session. Like goto the zoo and get some ice cream or goto the movies and then get some ice cream...or just get ALOT of ice cream!
Hang in there. You can make it.
Posted by Midnightblue on July 23, 2008, at 20:00:10
In reply to Wah Wah Wah. my T is on summer break, posted by llurpsienoodle on July 23, 2008, at 15:22:44
I think you should go visit Jammer.
MB
Posted by llurpsienoodle on July 23, 2008, at 20:21:33
In reply to Re: Wah Wah Wah. my T is on summer break » llurpsienoodle, posted by Dinah on July 23, 2008, at 19:08:40
> It's nice that you had contact from your old therapist during your therapist's break. A little therapist fix.
>Hi Dinah,
yeah, it comes at a wonderful time (((((formerT))))) she is such a sweetie to take the time to write me a card.
> Do you have any meds on hand to help with the sleep? Lack of sleep can make all the stressors way worse, and start all that nasty physiological stuff.I have sonata, which helps falling asleep, but I got nothing for STAYING asleep, unless I go back to klonopin. problem is that I've got to be alert at 6am for work. maybe xanax is a better bet?
I'll consult the meds board for this one, I suppose.
>
> It's at least good that you have somewhere to hide from your SIL. We have a no houseguest rule in our house. But if we didn't I'd at least insist on a hidey place. One with insulated walls, I think.She keeps asking me to do this (fix my computer) or that (let's go to the grocery store) or this (Llurpsie- come watch this movie with me) or that (Come look at your tomatoes)
My tomatoes look good, btw. all green, but plump and shiny.
i digress. she is demanding and intrusive, but very generous. has a very short fuse. but funny as hell.
thanks for your idea, I'm gonna go off to the meds board now
-Ll
Posted by llurpsienoodle on July 23, 2008, at 20:23:56
In reply to Re: Wah Wah Wah. my T is on summer break, posted by Looney Tunes on July 23, 2008, at 19:40:55
We had lobster for dinner. i guess that counts. We ordered frozen lobster tails, and they came with dry ice and everything!
ice cream sounds unappealing. I suppose it's the wellbutrin.
I wish I had some time to chill out this week. I took the morning off of work (one advantage of only working 20 hours a week, I guess)
-Ll
Posted by llurpsienoodle on July 23, 2008, at 20:25:21
In reply to Re: Wah Wah Wah. my T is on summer break » llurpsienoodle, posted by Midnightblue on July 23, 2008, at 20:00:10
> I think you should go visit Jammer.
>
> MBAnd a disadvantage of working this week, with Mom coming and everything. :(
I need the money though. credit card bill is already 2000 dollars. yikes.
-Ll
Posted by jammerlich on July 23, 2008, at 20:59:37
In reply to Re: Wah Wah Wah. my T is on summer break » llurpsienoodle, posted by Midnightblue on July 23, 2008, at 20:00:10
I invited her to come luxuriate with me over the weekend, but she declined. :(
((((((((((Llurpsie))))))))))
Posted by seldomseen on July 24, 2008, at 5:23:36
In reply to Wah Wah Wah. my T is on summer break, posted by llurpsienoodle on July 23, 2008, at 15:22:44
I'm sorry Llurpsie, I know missing your T sucks.
I don't know how we managed to do it, but my T and I scheduled our vacations for exactly the same time this summer. Just luck I guess.
Take care
Seldom
Posted by llurpsienoodle on July 24, 2008, at 17:46:42
In reply to Wah Wah Wah. my T is on summer break, posted by llurpsienoodle on July 23, 2008, at 15:22:44
Had to gulp a klonopin. amazing what .5mg will do after not having taken any for a month.
I feel woozy and strange. but better, I suppose.
thank you all for support. I will probably post little updates here as I feel inspired.
((((me))))
Posted by jammerlich on July 24, 2008, at 19:20:51
In reply to Re: Wah Wah Wah. my T is on summer break, posted by llurpsienoodle on July 24, 2008, at 17:46:42
((((((((((Llurpsie))))))))))
Sorry so much is going on that you needed the klonopin, but glad it helped some.
I'm thinking about you.
Posted by lucie lu on July 24, 2008, at 19:26:06
In reply to Wah Wah Wah. my T is on summer break, posted by llurpsienoodle on July 23, 2008, at 15:22:44
Oh Llurpsie,
You got a double whammy - T on vacation and family visiting ;) My sympathies!
Hang in there, it's only a few weeks...
Best, Lucie
Posted by llurpsienoodle on July 25, 2008, at 16:34:53
In reply to Re: Wah Wah Wah. my T is on summer break, posted by lucie lu on July 24, 2008, at 19:26:06
I just looked at my calendar for next week. I usually see him on tuesdays and fridays. curses. I only have next friday scheduled.
This sucks. I could use a little therapizing right about now. I suppose I'll call him monday am, to see if he has any openings.
-Ll
who doesn't want to go eat at her favorite seafood restaurant. would rather wallow than eat oysters.
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