Posted by llurpsienoodle on July 23, 2008, at 17:40:29
In reply to Re: Wah Wah Wah. my T is on summer break, posted by stellabystarlight on July 23, 2008, at 15:47:31
> How long is your t on a summer break? I thought they're suppose to refer you if they're gone for a long time. You're not a weakling...I know that I would be a basket case. I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. Life can be so overwhelmingly hard at times. Take care of yourself.
> stellabystarlightHi Stella,
T is only gone for 7 days. He told me who would be covering for him, but I forgot her name :( :(I just got a card in the mail, which makes me feel happy and sad at the same time. It is from my oldT, who I saw for a little less than a year. The hardest year of my life. She got me through many many crises. She sent a note that we have been communicating a lot this summer, because a flower I gave her has been blooming non-stop a year later. It was so nice to hear from her, but I'm crying right now, because I miss her so much. I miss currenT a lot too, but not in that tender cozy way. Rather, I miss my currenT's ability to make me laugh even while suicidal and his ability to help me wade though a swamp of distress without sinking into a quagmire. I miss his good judgment, and his ability to KNOW me without judging me. To like me despite KNOWING me. To have hope in me even when I have none myself. Ultimately I respect him so much that I am left no choice but to respect the fact that he likes me ergo I am likable.
I meander.
Thanks for your post to me, you are so kind
-Ll
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