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Posted by slinky on November 29, 2003, at 5:38:36
..I awoke got up and for a few seconds I thought I was expecting him to arrive at my door--freaky.
I often see his face and tell him to f--koff - I wasn't supposaed to be born but he put me here on this planet and deserted me left me alone with a crazy mother.
Past has gone but it emerges at a time when you don't need more pain...doesn't allow me to grow up.
Left with big emptiness and a mood/personality disorder i'm trying to control.
I find it so hard to feel gratitude for what i have today..but lack of interest and ongoing pain and the longing for it all to end.
When I don't feel the music- it's time.
So that's my whine.
This life has to be a joke HA F''''ing HA! I long to laugh.
Suppose I' better go shopping~
Upside down smile
Posted by zenhussy on November 29, 2003, at 11:45:17
In reply to is my father dead~i have no idea, posted by slinky on November 29, 2003, at 5:38:36
> ..I awoke got up and for a few seconds I thought I was expecting him to arrive at my door--freaky.
> I often see his face and tell him to f--koff - I wasn't supposaed to be born but he put me here on this planet and deserted me left me alone with a crazy mother.
> Past has gone but it emerges at a time when you don't need more pain...doesn't allow me to grow up.
> Left with big emptiness and a mood/personality disorder i'm trying to control.
> I find it so hard to feel gratitude for what i have today..but lack of interest and ongoing pain and the longing for it all to end.
> When I don't feel the music- it's time.
> So that's my whine.
> This life has to be a joke HA F''''ing HA! I long to laugh.
> Suppose I' better go shopping~
> Upside down smileSlinky,
You wrote most of my life right there. Zowie. Thanks for sharing that.
I don't see it as a whine at all. I see that as honest insight and an opening to the pain which makes way for healing.
You're a grown up who is always growing. I've seen that in my lurking 'round these here boards over the years. You're cool beans chickie. = )
zenhussy
Posted by shar on November 29, 2003, at 20:53:47
In reply to Re: is my father dead~i have no idea » slinky, posted by zenhussy on November 29, 2003, at 11:45:17
Thanks, Zen. Slinky's message really touched me, and I wanted to reach out, but it's very far from my experiences.
I'm glad you could respond with such care and understanding. I care about Slinky even tho' I didn't know how to express it.
Shar
Posted by zenhussy on November 30, 2003, at 20:06:07
In reply to Re: is my father dead~i have no idea » zenhussy, posted by shar on November 29, 2003, at 20:53:47
You just did.
Hugs to both Slinky and Shar.
What lovely ladies you are and kind too.
zh
Posted by judy1 on December 8, 2003, at 9:48:39
In reply to is my father dead~i have no idea, posted by slinky on November 29, 2003, at 5:38:36
you expressed yourself beautifully. when we feel things that don't fit the norm, we have to recognize and (I guess) eventually accept it- although I myself am on that road. know you're not alone- judy
Posted by slinky on December 8, 2003, at 20:02:37
In reply to Re: is my father dead~i have no idea » slinky, posted by judy1 on December 8, 2003, at 9:48:39
Thanks for listening sweethearts.
Pain deeply engraved in my heart - the loss.
Also left me with an inability to have sexual relationships with someone of my own age.
I need a daddy.
I hugged my friend tonight it was so comforting--the kind of hug that doesn't lead to sex.
He say's I'm going bananas :-)
Posted by zenhussy on December 8, 2003, at 20:28:41
In reply to Re: is my father dead~i have no idea, posted by slinky on December 8, 2003, at 20:02:37
> Thanks for listening sweethearts.
Always honey, always.
> Pain deeply engraved in my heart - the loss.
> Also left me with an inability to have sexual relationships with someone of my own age.
> I need a daddy.In some way we all do. As for inability? Dunno there. Not for me to comment. I believe that you will find the right fit for you eventually. You are too special a gem to slip through this life unappreciated and left in the rough. Someone will find you and gently craft your dreams and you into the brilliant shining slinkolicious we all know you to be!
> I hugged my friend tonight it was so comforting--the kind of hug that doesn't lead to sex.
> He say's I'm going bananas :-)Ooop oop eep eep oop. Nuts to him. I'm glad you had someone kind to hold you. We all need more of that. I know I do. I'm far too far from my honey. Love shall prevail.
When bananas make fruity smoothies. Freeze up peeled bananas on baking sheet. Slice with sharp knife into ice cube sized pieces. Blenderize nanner bits with frozen berries of choice (blue, straw, rasp, or mix em all up crazylike), dollop of yogurt (I use plain nonfat cuz I like it but some ppl like vanilla to add some sweetness), and juice of choice (apple fer me thanks). Yummy frothy frozen goodness.
If you do want to go on about really needing a daddy I would explore that with ya. I'm here Slinks.
zennyhusster
Posted by slinky on December 9, 2003, at 2:17:39
In reply to Re: is my father dead~i have no idea » slinky, posted by zenhussy on December 8, 2003, at 20:28:41
I believe that you will find the right fit for you eventually. You are too special a gem to slip through this life unappreciated and left in the rough. Someone will find you and gently craft your dreams and you into the brilliant shining slinkolicious we all know you to be!
>
Don't think I want anyone , I'm in a strange space -have been for ages. Can't look after myself properly...but the land of dread n doom isn't as prevailant.Thanks for recipe-too much action involved for me to do:)
Been painting a tiny area for days--looking weirdly~good.
You're sounding mucho better , whack that depression with a big axe and bury the bits in quicksand.
See you later....
Posted by slinky on December 18, 2003, at 5:08:45
In reply to is my father dead~i have no idea, posted by slinky on November 29, 2003, at 5:38:36
If information I received is correct-not from reliable source-my mother...he died around about the time I posted here.
I feel no sadness.
My mothers had a breakdown..so whats new.
Money or love doesn't bring happiness...not in my world.
I'm as flat as a witches tit.
Posted by Jai Narayan on January 23, 2004, at 18:23:16
In reply to Spooky.., posted by slinky on December 18, 2003, at 5:08:45
> If information I received is correct-not from reliable source-my mother...he died around about the time I posted here.
> I feel no sadness.
> My mothers had a breakdown..so whats new.<Dear slinky, I too have experienced a mother that goes into a breakdown often and I know it's so painful and hard. I am so sorry your dad was not available...I know it's painful to have a dad be distant but not there at all. Well that's way beyond. How did you get help all your life? Was someone there to help you?
> Money or love doesn't bring happiness...not in my world.
I know that money was always the root of evil in my family. So sad.
> I'm as flat as a witches tit.How are you now?
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