Posted by slinky on November 29, 2003, at 5:38:36
..I awoke got up and for a few seconds I thought I was expecting him to arrive at my door--freaky.
I often see his face and tell him to f--koff - I wasn't supposaed to be born but he put me here on this planet and deserted me left me alone with a crazy mother.
Past has gone but it emerges at a time when you don't need more pain...doesn't allow me to grow up.
Left with big emptiness and a mood/personality disorder i'm trying to control.
I find it so hard to feel gratitude for what i have today..but lack of interest and ongoing pain and the longing for it all to end.
When I don't feel the music- it's time.
So that's my whine.
This life has to be a joke HA F''''ing HA! I long to laugh.
Suppose I' better go shopping~
Upside down smile
poster:slinky
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