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Posted by holymama on January 4, 2004, at 17:41:52
I've recently been diagnosed with bipolar II after finding out that antidepressants make me manic!! Although I am stabilizing on Trileptal and Lexapro and no longer feel manic, the three month manic episode I had this fall is hard to shake. I had what I can only describe as a 'mystical' experience, feeling close to God, feeling saintly, holy...it is hard to find the words. I had previously been studying the bible a bit with a Jehovah's Witness for a few months, and when I got manic I became OBSESSED with the religion and with living a life centered on God. I freaked everyone out around me, considering I'm a very liberal hippy artist mother of three little children. This change was severe.
The obsession is gone now that I have come down out of that mania, but the longing for God is still there. I guess this is a good thing -- a gift -- something I can take away from the experience that I had and use in my life. I have a very strong faith in God now and a strong desire to be a Christian (though hopefully I can shake the Jehovah's Witnesses!!)
It's just been such an earth shaking, life changing event for me and has left me really confused. I am mentally ill...I have experienced religious ecstasy...I have been involved with a 'brainwashing' cult...all at the same time. I am looking for any advice, stories etc. to help me sort this out.. Thank you!
Posted by rayww on January 4, 2004, at 18:39:57
In reply to has anyone had a mystical manic experience?, posted by holymama on January 4, 2004, at 17:41:52
Was there anything in your mystical experience that you would consider false? Is it wrong to feel close to God, saintly, holy? Were you ready for those feelings, or did they cause a change of lifestyle? Hold fast to that which is good. Learn to recognize the good spirit, and develop your awareness of similar feelings I guess. It is good to long for God. Even the obsession has its place. We can learn for ourselves when an obsession has gone too far and then back up a bit, or take it to a private corner of our world. I like to write swinging stories. It's fun to let your obsession run wild on paper. And it helps reign it in to reality.
I'm curious about the Jehovas Witness experience, but you likely can't post it here. XXX
Posted by simus on January 5, 2004, at 21:17:02
In reply to has anyone had a mystical manic experience?, posted by holymama on January 4, 2004, at 17:41:52
Although "religious ecstacy" and "mystical experience" are not terms I am completely comfortable with, it is very possible you had a touch from God during a hard time in your life. I say this because your faith was strengthened, and you now have a longing for God and a strong desire to be a Christian. That sounds just like something God would do. :) May you continue to seek, because then you shall find. God bless you on your journey.
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