Posted by chemist on May 16, 2005, at 0:42:10
In reply to HELP/URGENT! I AM OUT OF CONTROL! » chemist, posted by AMD on May 15, 2005, at 23:33:38
> No sooner am I feeling better than I'm out drinking and "drugging," as the NA'ers so lovingly call it, again. From Thursday night until 3 p.m. the day after. And then going to the office Friday, smelling of alcohol, before realizing -- hmm, perhaps that's not the best idea.
>**** hi amd, perhaps a trip to the ER is appropriate, if your subject line is any indicator...it sounds like you had a big night out..*****
> This was Thursday night, and now it's Sunday, and yet, unlike any time before, *I still feel high*. Not high, "cocaine high," but high "Ican'tseemtotypefastenoughandmythoughtsarenotclear " high.
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> I don't see how this could possibly be the cocaine from the other night -- it's been, what, ~57 hours? I can't even add. What did I do to myself? For the first time in my life I literally feel like I am going crazy.
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**** well, you took a lot of chemicals and mixed them and drank...and on top of the meds you are prescribed, not a favorable combo, in my opinion ****> And I read these messages and want to cry, because you guys have been so supportive, and I have been nothing but a complete and utter failure.
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**** you have been trying to get your head on straight, i think, and it is not an overnight process: i feel saddened for you, as it appears that you triggered in yourself the feelings of guilt and remorse and panic, but i would not lable you a failure: that is a bit extreme and out of line...who am i to judge?****> This is either:
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> a) serious alcohol withdrawal-related dementia;
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> b) cocaine psychosis;
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> c) a full-blown manic episode;
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> d) something too terrible to write down.
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> Everything I've written in the past two months feels like a cakewalk compared to this. What is going on? Help!
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> amd
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*** here is what's going on, because you ask: you are mixing alcohol, cocaine, and (? three?) prescription medications on what appears to be a more than very irregular basis, and you feel lousy for days afterwards. that's the long and short of it, really....yours, chemist *****
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