Posted by chemist on May 11, 2005, at 19:52:31
In reply to Re: ...but look at the bright side... » chemist, posted by AMD on May 11, 2005, at 18:33:05
> ... fortunately, Oracle is one of those beasts I have tamed quite well and thus enjoy frolicking with (perhaps not the best term).
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%%% not a bad habit... %%%> So it's day six, and I'm hoping to improve soon, but I still feel physically and mentally ill, and decidedly less than bright. In fact, I fell less alert today than I did a few days ago, so I hope my cognition is not on the decline. I'll trust you when you said it's not, and that these drugs didn't kickstart a dive into further depressive horrors!
%%% if it proves otherwise, you would be an exception to a rather common rule...%%%
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> The plight of the gifted is that it's shocking when one actually has to apply oneself to a task, as I'm sure you're aware.
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%%% i am gifted at the art of avoiding undertaking tasks, that is certain...%%%> I need to give myself more credit. I hope, that is, that one night of ketamine and heavy cocaine (followed a few days after by a couple glasses of wine; yes, I was bad) won't have taken away years of learning /how/ to learn and inherently knowing /how/ to process and categorize information.
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%%% it would be rather surprising to me if it did. then again, there is apoptosis...%%%> It's the executive functions I fear losing most. And my job. I am accustomed to a steady income and being broke -- isn't that the curse of bipolar. Not two dozen snake-bite kits: my conpulsive spending is on books and CD's. But obviously, I'd be homeless without my job.
%%% i must be unipolar, as being broke has been the theme for my whole life, and i took a vow of poverty in my chosen path: yet i have very, very few possessions, and do not yearn for any, or buy much at all...perhaps the compulsions never developed because the means were never in place...a cure? %%%
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> So that's scaring me to death right now. I'm afraid to pick up a book for fear I'll be unable to read it (and thus from a guy who loves to read). So you can imagine how this affects me given the stresses of the office.%%% nope, office life has been avoided at all costs, by mutual agreement...besides, i do not own a tie or a jacket. or a wristwatch...but i imagine the stressors are severe, and the northeast is not known for being a relaxed kind of place...%%%
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> So, again, I hope this passes soon.
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> amd%%% of course it will. give it time....yours, c %%%
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