Posted by alexandra_k on August 22, 2005, at 0:13:05
In reply to Kind of afraid of going back to school *trigger*, posted by Deneb on August 21, 2005, at 23:18:50
> I'm a little afraid of going back to school.
Yeah. It can be pretty scarey.
> What if I can't get my act together?You can :-)
Its really important to you.
I reckon you can do it.
It might be hard at times
But I'm sure people here will help you haul your *ss through that best you can.
And hopefully... You can get into seeing someone at the councelling services... Otherwise we'll just have to do the best we can till Jan. But I reckon you can do it. I do.
> What if I get desperate again and do something really stupid?Well... Then I guess you have to pick yourself up and dust yourself off as best you can. And get back to it. It can be really hard. Especially if / when the panic sets in and you start thinking that there is no way you can do it. But you can. But it is hard, that is true.
> What should I do if I start to feel like it is worth the risk to feign illness by downing a bunch of pills?Then you should phone your p-doc IMMEDIATELY.
> What if I start to do really badly again?You can talk about it on the boards...
You can try and get into see someone from the councelling services
(Better now than when you are in a right state - but better then than not at all)
You can try and remember how you sometimes feel all is hopeless when objectively you are doing fine (like with the course you didn't think you were doing well in and your proff said you were going to get an A)
You can try and remember that those really really bad spaces only last a couple days. A couple days. If you can manage to haul yourself through that then things will pick up a little.
They will.
> What if I find myself choosing death instead of life?Then you will phone your p-doc.
I'm serious.
An emergency is an emergency.
> I just have a bad feeling...I've never been able to make it through an entire school year without having serious suicidal ideations (except in elementary school).Me neither.
Still have them in fact.
Spent time in hospital this year too.
And last year.
And the year before.
But one week of that and I'm good to go again.
Ideations are okay.
Well... They aren't okay but if they are manageable then they are manageable.
If you start to get action urges and think you are going to do something. Or if you just feel that it is getting a bit much then you should ring your p-doc. Emergency again.
> You know that break that most university put in the spring time or close to spring time? Is part of the reason for that break to relieve stress so we won't kill ourselves? I must not have had enough fun during mine.Yeah. I think its partly to relieve stress. Without the break I think people get run down and tend to get physically sick too. Most of my flatmates get sick bout the time I find myself going a little loopy. I guess we just handle the stress in different ways. Also... If its anything like our system ITS NOT A HOLIDAY! ITS A STUDY-BREAK!
But yeah. Time to have a rest from the constant overstimulation one gets from all those classes and labs and co.
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