Posted by alexandra_k on June 26, 2005, at 19:13:11
I just went to my local uni. Was lucky to get entry. I was a real terror at school and never did any work...
It was good as an undergrad. Well... I thought it was anyway. I did really well. There was enough competition to keep me working hard. The courses were ok.
When I got to honours I was the only full time student. I thought I was lucky because I got the professors undivided attention for 2 hours every week.
But I also had a tutoring workload. And no competition. Nobody else to talk to aside from officemate. I didn't do as well.
Then I got a summer scholarship to do some research in Australia for 3 months. It was amazing over there. Really stimulating. Lots of discussion with lots of PhD students and a really active seminar series and reading groups...
I was told not to come back here. They said lots of what I considered to be fairly nasty and derogatory stuff... I tried not to take it personally and came back (thought I needed to for treatment and the expense of moving).
And... Over time... I see that they are right. There is no other way to say that.
Arts and Social Sciences has a huge deficit that they have to make up or... risk departmental closure I guess. Redundancies are coming. Departmental mergers are coming. The downward spiral is getting out of control. It is a sinking ship and I have to get off.
This sucks.
Yeah, I considered myself lucky to gain entry.
I was really suprised at how well I did to start with.
But that motivated me to work really hard.
But now it is going to be really very hard for me to get entry to someplace decent when I've got my particular uni affiliation.Crap
Crap
CrapStill... More chance in Australia. Less applicants than the US.
I hate it here.
It is no wonder it is hard to get working
And get motivated
And kick around ideas.
I really do hate it here.
And now...
They are making noises about my internet access.
I'll say 'research'.
But who knows.It is time for me to move on...
Need to wait till October to apply.
I am so fed up.
poster:alexandra_k
thread:519464
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