Posted by alexandra_k on January 23, 2014, at 1:08:59
In reply to Re: Can't quite believe I am going through with it, posted by baseball55 on January 22, 2014, at 20:02:11
i am following along. i am not entirely sure what to say. i... feel like i don't want to say the wrong thing / offer something that isn't what is needed right now.
i can empathize with looking for a place to live on a tight budget. and with how sucky it is looking on your own.
is there any particular reason why you need to / want to stay close to where you are now? could you (for example) stay with your sister in california for a bit and look for a place closer to her? or maybe move back to where you have other family supports?
otherwise... good luck with the broom closet hunt. i guess... you probably do want to live by yourself. for a bit, anyway. try and... i guess my advice (ymmv) is to live someplace where it is convenient and easy for you to do social stuff to meet people who are likely to be supportive and helpful for you. because that stuff can be hard to do at the best of times.. but if you are sort of amongst it (but with your own personal space) that can really make things very much easier.
i guess one of the most important things is that you get to meet supportive people. so even though you are moving to live by yourself you get to feel less lonely than you were in your distanced marriage. have you thought about maybe getting a pet? i don't know how strict places would be... if you got a puppy or something like that...
i've been thinking about a plant. i got basil to eat... but then left some on it and felt sorry for it and kinda liked having it around... so it hung around for a couple weeks... but then i was having tuna pasta... and so... i ate it. oops. i want a plant. but not just any old plant. i want a super dooper cool plant. the hunt is on. and basil. i miss my basil. but basil is so (ooooooo) tasty.
i've discovered sparrows have made this place their own. i thought there was one mildly crazy one that was checking out my window sill for potential nest material... but, no, when they think i'm not here (because i'm on the toilet, or because i'm being quiet with my computer) the fly on in and make themselves at home. maybe they ate the cockroach... i can't find him... i brought lemon scented poison spray especially... though i feel kinda sorta somewhat bad... and i think abotu minority groups and how everyone hates the cockroaches... but i also brought bottled water. because if his rubbish stained feet upset me... why would i feel alright drinking the sludge that comes through the water pipes that his little roachy friends like to crawl about in???? ugh. ugh. ugh.
i used to have a two tiny goldfish in a cute little round bowl but they kept dying on me. apparently the cute little round bowl was cute... but not really ideal for keeping fish in... too small, basically, if it was filled to maximise surface area etc etc...
i think... being surrounded by... life is important. maybe that is it.
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