Posted by moonshadow on August 28, 2009, at 17:01:48
I feel like I have a wonderful group of friends, and a couple who I feel really close to. The thing is, none of them know about my mental illness. One of them babysits for me while I go to my therapist, so she's aware that there is 'something' going on, and she's seen all my scars, obviously. But no one brings it up. It's weird, like the elephant in the room no one mentions. And with me, in the summer, it's horribly obvious because of my scars. Unless they think it's the cat, like the barista does.
I know by nature I'm a private person, and I'm very sensitive to rejection, so that may factor in to why I don't talk about it or bring it up myself. I don't want to risk someone misunderstanding, or not 'getting it'.
Actually, I have had two friends who truly knew me - one died in May, and the other one moved across the world.
I just feel so....false. Yet do I really want to be known?
How much of your mental issues do your friends know? Is it common to have everyone around you in the dark?
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