Posted by ClearSkies on February 24, 2008, at 16:54:22
In reply to Re: Now I'm feeling sad. » R. -T. V. 52y, posted by Kath on February 24, 2008, at 16:30:59
> Hi Richie,
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> Thanks for that story!
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> I am in the process these days, of trying to keep steering my mind back to the positives. That is such a good story as to how to think positively.
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> I'm attempting to keep things in perspective & one way in which I can do it is to remember how things were last year at this time, & compare the 'now' problems to THOSE BIG ones!!!
>Interesting you should say that Kath, as I was just thinking how my tendency is to dis-remember or sometimes even forget my own history, and just dwell on the present circumstances. Human nature, I suppose, yet it's helpful to recall the far journeys that some of us have been able to make. A friend of mine was kind enough to point it out to me the other day.
And yet, we tend to look at the sorrows of today, and frame our miseries in that picture alone - we lose the perspective that yesterday would bring us. And so I forget the misery that I, myself was, just 4 years ago; unable to wrap more than a few weeks of sobriety together at a whack. Unable to look farther than the end of my nose, really.
Incredible what the passage of time has brought. And yet, time has robbed me of the memory of the misery; the abject misery of that time from my recollections. I have to look back in the archives here to really be able to recall how unhappy I was at that time. Isn't that incredible? It's all so subjective.
Anyways, neither here nor there, but just, today. It's just as well that I don't wish for what was, because the reality is that those WAS days were fairly grim. Soaring highs - sometimes? not quite. More like the contrasts between the pitch black of deepest depression and the release from that darkness. Now I'm somewhere in the middle, roaming in between - not quite soaring, not quite in the depths. It's a fine place to be, if I let myself the pleasure of it.
ClearSkies
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