Posted by Jay_Bravest_Face on August 26, 2007, at 20:09:10
I got my 'physical' this week at my doctor's, and after going to the lab to get all my bloodwork and pee sample done, I am left feeling like I am in a hopeless case. I thought that might be the best way for me to die, of some kind of terminal illness. I am losing hope in ever having my own kids (after losing one...that f***ing SUCKS..the biggest understatement ). Almost 6 times in a row now, I've started a bit of a relationship with women on the online dating places, only to find out she never wants to have kids (or no MORE then already have) and marriage is some kind of hideous thing to them.
No, I don't think the only reason we are here is to pro-create, or get married or whatever. I am just thinking of paying a woman to conceive a child with, and just raise the child on my own. No....I want somebody to romantically love and be loved as well...but I guess THAT is asking too much! What's the point of carrying on? Everybody else are having their families and such... f*ck f*ck f*ck.
There are so many *ssholes out there who are fathers, who treat their kids like crap as well as their spouse. I KNOW I would make an excellent father..and even though I may be more agnostic now then ever, I still cling to hope, love, and the future. Maybe that is Faith...I don't know. Now I am supposed to phone this woman who is like the above...no to marriage...and no to kids. I'm not going to bother. So now all of a sudden, I am this 'horrible' person.jay
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