Posted by Tate_ne on October 31, 2006, at 16:31:49
Hi. I'm new...so don't get mad. heh.
I have a question...First, i attend a university and my therapist works there. She's a CBT therapist...so over half of the things i talk about and experience should not be happening.
She's quite beautiful and i hope she's married and happy. I have these strange feelings for her...first it was paranoia...now it's some strange feeling moving through my blood. ew.
I want to know more about her, but she constantly speaks of boundaries.
I've written things about her in my journal...which i let her read. (after she asked) everything was kinda in code...and she was confused. I told her it wasn't nasty. She said, with a little smile, "I probably wouldn't think it is." and i could tell she wanted me to say something, but i didn't.
I've never been in a realtionship before because i've been in a christian school and we were taught that fornication is evil. So i don't even know if it's sexual.
I get this sweet high after our sessions. and when were together in session, it's so intense! I badger her to tell me why she moved down here, and it was strange, because she allows me to keep testing her; placing her into this corner, and she would be smiling. Once i did it when she was walking me out, and this student walked past us. There was this strange shift in the air, and when i glanced at her...i knew what we were doing was wrong.
So, last week, after we took a break from each other (i missed her like...woah), we're sitting there and she tells me: "When i think about you...i think you should got see ____ for a couple of months(this other therapist) For the racial indenity and...for the confusing feelings about me."
WHAT!
I didn't even bring it up! I was the one who tried to start goals again! (She just listens to me and talks back. Then she'll stare at me...and i'll start aching...ugh)
1. Can anyone please make me not want her to care about me.
2. DOES she care about me (gah.)
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