Posted by ClearSkies on August 6, 2006, at 0:22:48
Miserable and awake. I owe babblemails, emails, telephone calls. None of that happening anytime soon. Monday I'm going away again, for another holiday. I should be pleased that I get to travel so much, but I don't care right now.
Funny how all the contentment and happiness vanishes like it was never there. Really funny. I read some of my positive posts and wonder who that person was. This is such a distorted state of mind that I can barely remember being happy. I hate this hate this hate this. So awful to see the spiral happening, spinning down right in front of me, powerless to stop it. The whole fake it til you make it isn't working for me.
I think I'm going to change my name back, maybe to PC or Rainyday.
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