Posted by alexandra_k on September 20, 2005, at 19:24:15
In reply to Re: My appointment *poss. trigger??*, posted by Deneb on September 20, 2005, at 18:40:50
> I didn't have time to compose myself. I think I waited like half an hour to be seen and it was just pure torture! The more I waited, the more anxious I got! I almost had a freaking panic attack!
Yeah. I get that most times I go... But it is always worse when you are meeting someone for the first time.
> He seemed like a pretty jolly guy, he didn't seem to make a big deal of anything I was saying.
Jolly is good :-)
> I don't think I did very well though...I was kind of all over the place...a little incoherent, rambling at times. :-(
Thats okay. I'm sure he would have noticed that you were nervous and I'm sure he is used to people feeling pretty nervous.
> I think he thinks things are more serious than they really are because he heard a lot of negative things in a short period of time. My other p-doc was given a lot of time to take in this negative information over a longer period of time and she was able to get used to it and not be alarmed.Did he seem alarmed?
What I'm thinking...
When you are in a good place you tend to think people over-react to you
When you are in a bad place you tend to think people don't take your distress seriously enough
So it is hard...
And somewhere in the middle is probably around the best place for them to be...
> I don't think he's like my p-doc at all. My p-doc used to teach me things.You have only seen him once! Give him a chance. There will never be anyone precisely like your old p-doc... But then there isn't anyone else precisely like Deneb either :-)
>This p-doc, get this...gave me a script for 0.5 mg RISPERDAL!!!
Thats probably a good thing. I think the thought is... That it can help just take a slight edge off the anxiety and reactivity of mood. It won't be a magic cure. But it it helps just a little tiny bit... If it helps take the edge off it so you don't get into bad places so often... So you recover faster... So they aren't as intense when they occur... And (probably most likely of all) so that you don't get paranoid when you are in a bad place... Then it could help you out. Especially given that things are going to get fairly stressful as the semester goes on with assessment / exams etc.
It will take a little while to build up in your system. Sounds like he has given you a fairly low dose. It might sedate you slightly to start with (Friday evening can be the best time to start those kinds of meds so you are up to what you have to do on Monday). But you do need to take it regularly.
If you do take it regularly... For maybe 3 or 4 months it would be interesting to see whether things have improved for you. It won't be a magic cure but it might take the edge off it so you are in a better place to receive support and are better able to help yourself out of it.
poster:alexandra_k
thread:557226
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20050916/msgs/557413.html